melepaskan.

bismillah.

dalam hidup ada banyak hal yang kita perlu lepaskan walau sedalam mana pun sayang kita terhadapnya. memang tak semudahnya, memang.

tapi, selagi kita berpegang kepadanya hingga menyakitkan kita sendiri, ia seolah olah melakukan hal hal bodoh. 

“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't coma back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. Damn, there's nothing like that, is there? I've been there and you have too. You're nodding your head.” 
― Henry Rollins, The Portable Henry Rollins

kalau melepaskan adalah sesuatu yang mudah, pasti hidup kita lebih tenang. takkan ada ramai yang menderita sakitnya melepaskan.

“Was it hard?" I ask.
Letting go?"

Not as hard as holding on to something that wasn't real.” 
― Lisa Schroeder

ajarkan aku, untuk melepaskan?


pagi, duapuluhdua disember.